thinking out loud - about change

over the last year and more jude hill has been a strong influence, inspiration and mentor, and i am enormously grateful for her generosity - she has shared so much of herself, her time, her thoughts with us on Spirit Cloth, Sew and through her courses - it has been full of wonder, excitement and creative growth for me ..... and lots of others but they speak for themselves

now jude is making changes and i am worried about what it means for me - i can see that the changes make sense for jude .... it seems she aims to pursue the spirit cloth/magic diaries theme more and i haven't felt quite so drawn to this yet, and i can't work out why .....

....from a purely selfish point of view i don't want this "shift of focus" as i feel it will leave me behind (lots of baggage, grrrr) - the change will happen, Sew is about jude's vision not mine - i have noticed that i am more drawn by certain aspects of jude's teaching than others .... i have chosen to take shorter classes with a more specific focus, i suppose this is consistent with my tendency to be task oriented - this means i have avoided the more process oriented and longer term offerings which seems to be the path jude now plans to explore more

i have long been aware of my task orientation and the effect this has on my attention to process - but recently i have begun to pay more attention to process and it is something i have been very pleased about .... my textile explorations have been noticeably more about the how and why i get there than the fact of the end product - and i know this is good and right for me ...... and so far i have been able to take it at my own pace and watch others along the way on Sew

maybe i am not quite ready now for the changes in Sew now, but could be .... in time.... i will need to work through this a bit more

i feel lucky that i came across jude's path through the world of textile, it has led me to lots of other areas to explore and ways of exploring - and i'm noticing, again, that i feel i should take more notice of the journey ........ i'll try that for a while